There are lots of ways for a dress to die. The sudden, prime-of-life death: Somebody holding a cherry popsicle walks into you, and you're a goner. You get caught in the broken spoke of a bicycle wheel, feel that triangular tear; it's all over. Or you can die of old age: you get worn and worn and worn again and then one day you come out of the washer more fading and worn spots than good whole cloth, and you get torn up for rags.
Sometimes, though, you just go into a kind of limbo. A half-death. Somebody changed sizes, and it wasn't you, so you get pushed further and further back in the closet, so much so that you can't even really tell the difference between the door being open and the door being shut anymore, and you just … doze. Sometimes for a long time. Sometimes for years. Longer than you think you have, anyway.
And then (if your story is like mine), the door opens again, and not only does it open, you come out. Everything comes out! The dresses and the hats and the suits and the sweaters, and the moths in the sweaters, and the dust! Dust everywhere! You're glad you're not a dark dress, because the dark dresses' shoulders really show the dust.
It's hard, waking up again. Coming alive again. When you're being worn, being worn regularly, it's like the aliveness of the body you're on seeps into you, and keeps you going when you're on the hanger. But it can seep right out again, and after so long without being worn, the sparks of aliveness get further and further apart, like firefly flashes, there in the dark closet.
So there we all were, hauled out of the closet half-dead, and hanging on a rack in the middle of the room. Everything was laid out where it shoudn't have been — all her underthings, or at least the nicest slips, on the bed, with her gloves and her purses, and all her dressing table things on the bureau, laid out in rows, not like they would be on her dressing table at all (that was gone, I don't know where it went). All her shoes on the floor, lined up in rows like a class picture. The closet door was open and I could see it was empty; everything was out in the open. Everything looked so much duller than I remembered. Older.
There were women moving around, fussing and sorting and chatting. None of them were wearing dresses. They were wearing soft knit pants, and white tennis shoes, and long knit shirts that came down well past their hips. They all had short sleeves, and lots of them had things written on their shirts. I remember one said "COLORADO", but I didn't think that could be her name. Over the shirts some of them wore little half aprons, but they weren't real aprons. They were heavy canvas, and all one color — not pretty at all.
I'm not sure how long I was hanging there before I started noticing all this; it could have been a day, maybe longer, before things stopped being only light and color and sound and started being things I mostly recognized, however strange. I do know that when I finally started paying attention, it was early morning. Very early, with light coming in at that angle that means dawn wasn't so very long ago, but the women were energetic. They all had white paper cups, very large, with shiny white lids that they drank through. It smelled just like coffee, but the cups were huge.
Pretty soon, though, one of the women said "Oh, Lord, here they come!" and the other women gave that kind of groaning laugh when you're half-dreading, half-anticipating something. I remember I used to hear it when I was still being worn, and she had the girls over for bridge and there was just time to play one last hand before they had to meet the kids after school. That kind of laugh.
All of a sudden the house was full of people! Mostly women, but also men. The men were in white or black tennis shoes, but leather, not canvas, and shorts, and more T-shirts with things written on them. The women were mostly in pants or shorts, too. Dungaree shorts! And always, always sneakers, or those thong sandals that I'd only ever seen on the beach. And everybody was so big! Not just tall, but round, too. They were all picking up her things, and carrying them off. Armloads of them, sometimes. One man walked through the room with all her records, the Perry Como and the Rosemary Clooney and all the old 78s — just everything. He could barely carry them all. He just took a look around at all her underthings there on the bed, laid out like cold cuts, and asked one of the aprons, "Any tools?" What was he going to do to those records that he needed tools? I didn't hear the answer, though, because I got grabbed up.
She had me by the shoulders and was flipping me this way and that. I don't think there was an inch of me that didn't get touched, or pulled, or held up to the light. I barely got a glimpse of her, what with all the somersaults of being turned inside out and back right side out again, and then I was squished between a wool coat I didn't remember and that plaid day dress that always got put back in the closet because she pulled across the shoulders, and we were headed towards the front door.
Slam! One of the apron-ladies moved her big white paper cup aside just in time, and there we all were in a pile on a table, and the apron lady said, "Let me see … two dresses, a coat, five handkerchiefs, and four books — how about twenty-five?"
"Twenty-five if I can take that box of zippers and things over there, too …"
"Oh, sure, honey, I think we priced that whole kit and kaboodle at three dollars. I can give you that."
And then we were all bundled up together, the coat and the plaid dress and the zippers and the books and me, and went right out the door.
All this time, I hadn't seen her anywhere, I mean the other her, the one that used to wear me. I didn't really expect to, anyway, there was an emptiness around, despite her things being everywhere. In fact, all her things being there made her being gone more obvious, if you know what I mean.
Next thing I knew I was spread across a different bed.
"And look at this one! The pockets!" she was saying, to the man in the room. He looked a bit bored, and it took me a minute to realize that she was talking about me. No one had ever mentioned my pockets before, and certainly not to a man.
I think it got a bit too much for me then, and I don't remember much else until I felt the nice warm massage of the iron over me. I felt just-washed — I must have been just washed — and I was being ironed, which, truly, is just the best feeling. You can be all jangly and cross-grained and overwhelmed but the iron just makes it all go away, and there you are fresh and smooth again. It's better than anything.
Then she put me on. I was being worn again! It was different than I remembered; it's hard to explain because it ought to be the same, being worn, but of course even though anyone who can fit inside you ought to feel mostly the same, it's still different. The breathing is different and the moving is different, and the hands in the pockets are different hands, and so even though it is almost the same, it's just not quite.
Funnily enough, though, it was the wearing that was the most familiar, because everything else is so different! It's almost like a different planet. I've never seen her touch a vacuum cleaner, for instance, and there's a machine that washes the dishes, but
more than half the time the man feeds it, not her. She spends most of her days with this thing that looks like a teeny television attached to some kind of typewriter — hours and hours staring at it and typing, but the paper doesn't come out of it, but out of another box in a different place, and even then she does about ten times as much typing as ever shows up on paper, as far as I can tell. And she talks on two different phones, neither of which are connected to anything. Just floating out there in the air! She walks all over the place with them, and sometimes, she even answers one in the car, with a little earpiece, like a hearing aid, only smaller. And also in the car, she has a little shiny white box, and it connects to the radio, although I wish it wouldn't. I mean — it's just not music, that's all. And even though I think I understand the words "roller" and "boogie", they make no sense put together, and I certainly don't know why they have to be followed by a word I didn't think could be said on the radio! And weirdest of all, the television (which is color, by the way) has a bar-thing you can point at it, about the size of a hairbrush, and it changes the channels and even freezes it! And when you come back from getting ice cream you can make it start again. Of course, she's mostly watching firefighters use foul language and misbehave, which I don't understand at all. She doesn't use that language herself (or at least I haven't heard her) but the music and the television are full of words I barely knew existed, before.
It's odd being alive again, but I'm not upset about it. I like being worn, of course, and I'm sure I'll get used to that … language in time. The only sad thing is that it's getting harder and harder to remember how it felt to be worn by the other one, the one so long ago. I can't even remember her name. I think it was Elaine, but I can't be sure, and the coat and the plaid dress don't know. I think they weren't ever worn as much as me, so their memories are even fainter. We stopped talking about it.
Almost all the other dresses in her closet are like me, revived Rip Van Winkles. Some of them like to talk about her behind her back. They don't like that she doesn't wear gloves, or hats, and they hate being worn with sneakers. They talk about their old owners, but I think a lot of it is just lint — they can't all have been worn to balls and important luncheons of the Women's Club and so forth. I keep myself to myself, mostly. I'm quiet. I'm just happy to be awake again. I like seeing the closet door open. I don't even care about the sneakers.
A Dress A Day 
ErinI have no idea why but I was crying when I finished the story.You have such a knack. Im not sure some of my friends would ever “get it”..but I know I get it.Funny how a simple story can touch such a chord.Thank you
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Your dress stories have the same effect on me as that Hans Christian Andersen story about the Christmas tree. This as I just pulled a favorite corduroy dress out of the closet this morning that I haven’t worn since spring. I’ll be sure my dress knows I love her!-Mary
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This is my favorite story yet, and I don’t know why it made me cry a little… just beautifully written. Please, more. A book full. I’ll buy it.
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Oh thank goodness I’m not alone — I’m a little teary here, too! Brava.
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This is my favorite too! I think because it’s *your* dress. (although maybe the others were too?) AND because it’s so pretty, and seems to have such a sweet personality. I’m going to go home and open the closet for all my old favorites. 🙂
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I’m very relieved that I wasn’t the only one who got a little misty when I read this!I make sure all my dresses feel loved by periodically pulling them all out and trying them all on again, to make sure they still fit!
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Very well done! You really created an atmosphere.
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“but I think a lot of it is just lint ” I love that line! Very cute version of events. This was a fun departure from your other stories, and as enjoyable as ever. 🙂
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I’m sitting here crying as I think of being one of the women picking this dress up and looking it over and exclaiming over the pockets (having done this so very often in my profession). This has really touched a nerve. You have a real gift for story telling.
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Best one yet! Such a feeling of hope and cautious optimism!
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How funny – this one made me misty-eyed, too! I love how the ironing makes her feel better. And how she’s really concious of the other clothes. I think maybe this one in particular is so touching because it really speaks to mortality, ephemerality: all of us, and the fruits of our labor (such as dresses), will eventually fall apart and disintegrate. The iPods will take a lot longer, of course; maybe that’s why they’re less moving, as objects (besides being mass-produced – but don’t get me wrong, I’m not knocking them). I’ve had many a sweet old dress give die on my watch – after having lived for so long – and I always feel awful about it; but I do think it’s worse not to be worn at all.
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Beautiful. And I got teary too.
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This IS one of the best so far, Erin! I got teared up as well. I’ve felt all along in doing what I do….salvaging these things from demise, finding them a new home….that a large part of what I was doing was to help breathe new life into dresses long forgotten. This truly captures how I’ve felt. Utterly wonderful! Ang
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Thank you!
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What a beautifully-written story! It made me think of the hats belonging to my father that I have…the one he wore while he was dying and I took him to the doctor, I put where I couldn’t see it. But the other, a gray felt top hat I bought him in London in 1977, is proudly perched in my dining room for all to see. I often wonder about the previous owners of the vintage clothes I handle. And I’ve never been to an estate sale. This was as good as being there…BETTER!
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I’m glad I’m not the only one who is saying: BOOK! These stories are so touching and so real. Your writing is vivid, honest, and full of sentiment. Wonderful.I enjoyed the “watching firefighers use foul language” interjection. It made me smile through my watery eyes.
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My daughter has sent me other stories but I have not taken the time to read them (I’m at work). I don’t know why, but I read this one all the way through. And I got tears! The dress reminds me of my mother’s dresses, and she wore hats and gloves, long line bras and girdles, too. I can see her things on her bed as she was getting dressed for the day. You are a gifted writer. I’ll make sure to read them all from now on.
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~sniff~Just beautiful.THIS is the reason I sell vintage clothes, not the money (wich is nice), but the act of taking an item long forgotten and finding a new owner who will love and WEAR it.Thanks for a great post.. Of course, she’s mostly watching firefighters use foul language and misbehaveShe must be a Rescue Me addict like me.
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I would buy your book!Am now going upstairs to give all my dresses a hug.Esther A.
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Pretty print, pretty gathered neckline, lovely story.
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This is a beautiful story! I got a big lump in my throat when I read it. I think it’s your best one yet!Ever since I was very young I’ve thought inanimate objects have feelings too. Like someone above mentioned, it’s probably why I have such an affinity for things from past generations — they’ve seen more of life.
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Brava! What a great story. And what a great dress!
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Adding my thank yous for this…and my tears.
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After reading No. 8 I was a bit teary too! This touched a nerve with me, b/c this is what happened at my grandfather’s house after he passed. (no dresses, but many cardigans.) I feel her strange indignation over time/culture differences and love that she is happy to be worn again! i want to go home and try on all my clothes again. 🙂 I look forward to these the most out of all the info you post on your site!! Thank you for creating all these! They are beautiful!
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Erin–these just keep getting better and better. This one really struck a chord with so many of us. I love it. Now you’ve got me all misty-eyed and maudlin. Oddly, though, this entry is the one with the happy ending and yet, we’re all bawling in our coffee cups. Holly
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What a good-natured dress she is.
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Oh, that was wonderful! And yes, much like everyone else, I got a bit teary-eyed.(And now I’m imagining the conversations of my vintage dresses: “Do you ever get used to being worn with those black & white striped tights, instead of proper stockings?” “Not really. But it does become fun after a while.”)
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I just love these stories. Tell me that you are writing a book because these are fabulous. Also what happened to number7 — we went from #6 to #8? Thanks so much for posting these! best, Pink
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I love this one so much! And it made me tear up, too. It’s just… right.
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And it’s a Swirl dress too! How cool is that. Swirl dresses really have a neat history. Check out this write up from one of the Vintage Fashion Guild members to learn more about Swirl: http://fashionsfinest.fuzzylizzie.com/Swirl.htmlanna
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Oh, so lovely, and sad and happy at the same time.I really do think you could gather these beautiful stories up and have the most lovely and unusual book. I know I would buy it!
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What a lovely story.
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This was wonderful! Yes, I want to add my encouragement for the book. I would definitely buy it. I love these stories.
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It is my birthday and such a nice gift to be able to read this story today. I have seen many a vintage dress bite the dust but others that are just as beautiful today. Now, more than ever, I understand why I must “save the vintage” and find it a new and loving home. Thanks again for a heart warming read.
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What a pleasure to read. Glad I was not the only one with a lump in her throat. Thanks for a great story on an otherwise glum day!
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Excellent. Really is “why I do what I do”, as a vintage seller.
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Oh, Erin, this is absolutely your best yet, and they’re all superb. I am glad I’m not the only one who became emotional! You’ve created such a palpable atmosphere…wow. Her talking about what it feels like to be worn by different people is so…GOOD. Fabtastic job.Book! Book!
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Wow, just wow. I am so happy there’s a place in this world (blogger) for people like us to come together and enjoy things like this! I got teary and then smiley, that dopey twinkly smile that you can’t wipe off your face, because you’re feeling so emotional. Thank you so much. It makes me want to never buy a new dress again! I already bought my emay dress for the week, maybe i’ll have to get another though.
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AWWWW.
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How often I’ve thought, “if only that dress could speak”. This was a fun read and a tender tribute to a woman who must have known someone down the road would love her dress as much as she did.
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Brava. This is my absolute favorite “secret life” yet.So touching 🙂
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The dress is wonderful, and I love the story it inspired. Thanks for the image of dresses gossiping in the closet! That kept me smiling all day.
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Lovely. Thank you.
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Add me to the list of people who got a little misty reading this one. The bit about the dress missing her former owner got me, as well as the dress not understanding her new surroundings.
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Wow. This is really well written and just totally wonderful. I, too, teared up.
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thank you.It’s what you dream of finding and of creating yourself.
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the actually made my day. terribly long day at work. thank you!
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Lovely dress, wonderful story! Thank you!
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What a fabulous story! Love the dress too.
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What happened to #7? I enjoy these stories so much; I don’t want to miss one.
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